I've been the fool, the fool for you
Our eyes are always open, devoted to perfection through silence.
Haven't I been the fool? I've become so selfless that whatever I do, all I can think about is you & for your good. I want the best for you. I agree that I've been selfish about some issues but you know what? I still let you have what you desire. Perhaps this isn't the way to handle this but I would rather get locked up inside than losing you. Simply because, my dearest you, I love you more than anyone else.
Sometimes words can't just simply describe how I feel.
It's not that I wanna hide & keep it to myself. I wish I could pour this out to someone who would understand & give me a solution. I have you but I don't know what would it be like after telling you. But one outcome that I will never want to happen is, two might become one. And I swear, that is one of my biggest fears now.
Keep me from the cold, love. I'm barely hanging on.
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Enough of nonsense. School was bad. I got caught for my pinaform when my maid just altered it lower & extended the belt(cos it got cut) like two days before. Maths was uber fun. Did worksheets & I got back my mock test & I got 41/60. Mrs Ong praised me. :]:]:] I'm being proud here, haha. I haven't been praised for such a long time ok. Hm & I got punished during Chem. I got isolated & my dearest friends laughed at me instead of helping. Bloody hell, you. Hahah. Still can see 'Goodbye My Lover'! Thanks Vanessa, for helping me though. :] I got isolated.. Oh I said that already! Hm so yeap, sat right at the back of the class. 'Cos I didn't bring the paper. Bloody shit. Miss Su wants me to sit outside ok. Like so evil la. Then I refused to, insisted on sitting on my place. Hahah. Sat behind & slept until the bloody awful bell rang.
Went home after school. Showered, got my stuff & off to Compass. Met Qiaos, Shyan & Mich at Mos. Talked for awhile & we went down to BK to meet Jul & co. :) Sat around & uh studied. Ok I did write something on my paper ok & I did tried studying. At first we didn't really study. Hahha. Kept laughing & making fun of people. Laughed nonstop please! :D Mich & her retardedness, I so love. Went back at 6plus. Walked around & home. Daddy praised me for the results too. :] Uber happy. HHEHEHEH!
I'm off to study a little of SS & do maths paper one. Wish me luck everyone.
I love Jovene, she made me happy. Manys hearts to you babe!
We're hanging out soon to get.. uniforms. :D Like how funny.
Love you babeeeeeeeeee. (:
Eliza oh Eliza! :D Hahah I'm your fucking fan!!! Omg please hang out with me sooon! I beg youuuu!
That's really crazy, I'm sorry. Hahah. Where are you!!!?!?
Just when I needed you most. :)
Baby, you & I, this is perfecto.
<3.
7:27 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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